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God's beloved since 1993.
Daughter of a KING. Therefore, a PRINCESS.
Romans 8:38-39
Daughter of a KING. Therefore, a PRINCESS.
Romans 8:38-39
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I've been quiet here for a very long time the reason being the same as always. I get some idea for me to make a post about and when I finally try putting everything into words, it'll all just disappear like a bubble. Just like that. And I haven't been online the past few weeks. Yes, unbelievable but true. But this post, I just have to make this one. Not for me but for Him. I always struggle in making posts and often times end up posting nothing. But if it's about Him and His goodness, no matter how hard it is, I try my best to post it here because anything about Him is worth posting for. Plus, He gives me strength to do so. Anyway, if anyone's wondering how I've been, I've gone through life's roller coaster. I've had the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I've been broken over and over again. To the point that I even thought of the idea of ending it all. (Don't worry, those are just thoughts. I can never see myself doing that. God is good.) I've sinned frequently and extracted myself away from God and from what little relationship I was starting to have again with God. And even my secret sin which I have denounced before was beginning to become evident in my life again. I felt impure, dirty, and worthless. I felt so helpless that I even began to rely on strangers. And worse of all, I know I was being a hypocrite. I was standing in front of the people at church every Sunday and every church activity when I'm a wreck deep inside. What little self-esteem I have was diminishing slowly. In short, I was going on a downward spiral. Round and round 'til I reach the bottom. But because God is so good, even before I reach the bottom, He already picked me up and started pulling me up again toward Him. And that He always did in amazing ways. A conversation with a friend (who happens to be an atheist/agnostic. Not really sure which of the two he is) and two songs I heard at a concert I went to made me realize that how I've been thinking and living my life was not right. I've been busy focusing on my issues that I've forgotten to make Him the center of my life. I've made all of my struggles, my situation, my problems and my feelings take control and be the center of my life. I was reminded to make Him the center of my everything, of every part of my life, no matter how small or big it is. I was so busy questioning everything that I have overlooked the fact that it all happened because I haven't let Him take control of my life. I was blinded by my own actions. But because He loves me, He reminded me of what He already did for me and what He is constantly doing in my life. He have reminded me that He have already won my battle for me. That He have won the victory for me. Because He loves me. Because I am His child. Because I am His princess. And no child of His will be abandoned nor forsaken by Him. And all I have to do is let Him lead me where He wants me to go. You might get tired of reading posts like this from me, but I'll never stop because I know God will never stop working on me. He will allow me again to experience moments like this so that whenever I become broken, He would be able to fix me and made into an even better person. I'll never stop because His love for me never stopped flowing. I'll never stop because He deserves all the glory and honor and praise. And that to Him I now bring. :') P.S. I posted videos of the songs I was talking about in this post. Take time to reflect and meditate on the lyrics of the songs. God bless you all!
The Anthem by Planetshakers
Hallelujah,
You have won the victory. Hallelujah, You have won it all for me! Death could not hold you down, You are the risen king, Seated in majesty, You are the risen king!
Jesus Be The Center by
Israel Houghton
Jesus at the center of it
all
Jesus at the center of it
all
From beginning to the end,
it will always be
It’s always been You
Jesus, Jesus
Nothing else matters,
nothing in this world will do
Jesus You’re the center,
everything revolves around You
Jesus You (at the center
of it all)
Jesus be the center of my
life
Jesus be the center of my
life
From beginning to the end,
it will always be
It’s always been You
Jesus, Jesus
From my heart to the
heavens, Jesus be the center
It’s all about You, yes
it’s all about You
Jesus be the center of
Your church
Jesus be the center of
Your church
And every knee will bow
And every tongue shall
confess You Jesus, Jesus
- Princess HCR. ♥
I'll never get tired of this. I wish I could see a sight as lovely as this. :')
Last December 20, 2011, Tr. Wyndel, our churchmate, finally got married. Finally, after waiting for God's will for her, she finally tied the knot. And what a glorious wedding it was. It was kind of under prepared and whatnot, but it still was a very beautiful wedding. And what made it so beautiful is that love was very evident. You can see it in the way they look at each other, the way they kissed, touched and hugged. And even the way they giggle together. It was just so sweet and full of love.   
- Princess HCR. ♥
I know I promised (did I?) that I'd be faithful to this blog. In fact, compared to my previous blogsssss (because it's so many), I'm pretty sure I've been faithful to this one. Maybe not in posting. But I always check this blog out and always try to put something up.
But most often than not, I end up swallowing or worse, forgetting all ideas I had in my mind moments or days earlier. It's like one moment my mind is spitting out ideas long enough for a blog post then when I face my screen it all goes poof! Just like that. It's all gone.
Sometimes, I think it's a disorder no one's discovered yet. Or one not many know of. Do you happen to know any rehabilitation centers for this case? Haha. Lol.
Anyway, it's 5:58 am now. And I should be hitting the sack while everyone is just stirring up. Blame it all on my insomnia. I might not even sleep at all now and end up dozing off for a few minutes later...at different times. Haha. Weird.
Right now, I'm just ecstatic that I'm able to type and put up a post this long without getting it saved instead to every blog post's nightmare, Drafts. Haha.
Ciao. Some other time then. :)
- Princess HCR. ♥
P.S. Sorry for the title. It's the first thing that entered my mind. HAHAHAHAHA. =))
And suddenly it was like everything around us came to a
halt. Like nothing else mattered except for the two of us. I watched him as he
crossed the room making his way to me. I didn’t think it would happen again
after all these years. But it did.
I've spent all those years without him or with less of him thinking that what happened then was just us being young. Being caught with everyone in high school. And almost told myself that what I felt then was imaginary. That I imagined it all and it was not real. I thought I've moved on from it all but just feeling that gut feeling again even without seeing him made all the memories flood back. I suddenly felt every emotion we had back then. Love, hurt, happiness, sadness, longing...everything. And just catching a whiff of his smell again after how long felt so good. It is still the same scent of him that I knew before when we were young. He held out his hand and looked at me with that remarkable smile of him that was only for me, as I recall him saying. Then he looked at me straight in the eye asking that one question he asked a long time ago. And just like before, he looked past my eyes and deep into my soul. Labels: love |
